Friday, March 30, 2007
Then the picture came that was all upside down twisty-turny on a changing table picture. It was not the electric - this is my son - instantaneous connection that I always envisioned. I don't even know why I expected it. It took me weeks if not months of going through the mommy motions with my daughter to be totally and completely in love with her.....and i love her more and more each day. Why should I expect to fall in love with a picture?
However, now that I have been staring at it 2-3 times every 30 minutes for the last 26 hours....I am really seeing the supercuteness of Zebastian's little cheeks! I didn't know what to think - and literally felt sick to my stomach for the first hour. Then while I was looking at his picture something in my churning stomach just fell into place and BOOM - the realization that this is my son and no matter what issues he might have I wanted him to be my son.
Now it is time to wait some more! I am waiting to hear back from the international adoption doctor I am using.....Dr. Chambers from the UAB IA clinic in Birmingham. I should hear from her today or tomorrow. My coordinator said that the adoption commision may not meet during the month of April because the minister of Education is changing. I am not stressing out about it though. I waited 2 months for my referral - I can wait 2 months for travel! One month would be better, but that goes without saying!!!!
I am very lucky that one of my friends already has travel dates for the end of April - so I will get updated pictures in 3 weeks. Maybe I can send some stuff to him also...I don't know what they will let me send....but I will try to come up with something!
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Just want to reiterate that I really am super excited for all of the people I know that have brand spanking new travel dates! Especially dates that allow birthday celebrations with Yurt shaped cakes! Try not to wear out our coordinator while in country! I am still holding out hope that I may be able to travel at the same time as some of the other great people I have met during this crazy process. I guess the more of my friends that get travel dates before I have even gotten my official referral - the less likely it becomes that I will be able to travel at the same time as them. I really was hoping to travel at the same time as some others!
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
I am so glad I am almost done with trauma - it is really interesting....but a lot of work and emotionally and physically exhausting!
Monday, March 26, 2007
Saturday, March 24, 2007
I feel like I am getting close to my new little boy. Yesterday there were a lot of little baby boys at the hospital - it got me thinking about him. I am so excited ...it is hard to be patient and just wait for the medicals especially since I know that my coordinator already has a picture of him....she is just waiting to share until she gets the medicals translated. I have faith that I will get there eventually....unless all of the harrassing of my poor coordinator drives her to firing me!
Monday, March 19, 2007
The soonest my coordinator might get the translated medicals is Wednesday - so I have at least 2 more days! My prediction for my referral was this Friday - because it will be the day I am most exhausted...it may come to pass.
My coordinator did send me a list of all of the paperwork I will need to bring with me when I travel to pick up my little guy. I have stopped working on my "russian for adopting parents" and moved to the straight up living language Russian. Now that I know how totally young my son will be - it seems better to focus on learning enough Russian to try to get around. There are lots of form to fill out before my trip. I am hoping that things move quickly so that I can travel about the same time as some other families that I know. Of course everyone wants their adoptions to go quickly though - that kind of goes without saying!
My daughter and I have been working on names for her little brother and I think we have a pretty good one! I am going to wait to see what his given name is and if it was given to him by his birth mother.
With a referral so young - he wasn't even born when I started the process. It makes me feel a little sad. I remember when I was pregnant with my daughter and the crazy hopes and thoughts I had about her and what she would be like and thinking about her growing up. I am sure his birth mom had those same feelings even as she was probably struggling with big decisions.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
I hope I don't have to wait too long for his picture and medical. When I get that info - is the day I will officially count as my referral day!
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
My daughter is also very excited about the idea of a little brother - she wants to name him RockyToe. Ummmm why I don't know but I am thinking I will have to override that one!
Monday, March 12, 2007
Sunday, March 11, 2007
My daughter is more interested in making people laugh than trying to look pretty...I would like to think she gets that from me! Today is my last day off until March 24th! I was half hoping to hear something this weekend - but I am not feeling like it is time yet. I am fully hoping to hear something not next week - but the week after that (between the 17th and the 24th). That is when I will be at my most exhausted and will have the least amount of time to get anything done.
Until then my days will be filled with gun shot wounds, car crashes and idiots who let their kids ride on ATV's asking me when their child will be back to normal. It gets tough not to be just a tad judgemental when you see the same injuries day in and day out. I heard a piece on NPR in July or August about interns and residents and it was right on the money. You spend you intern year just trying to keep your head above water - there is sooooo much work it becomes very, very difficult to prioritize bed side manner. I think I am managing to keep my humanity in my interpersonal interactions with patients - but it takes a lot more effort than I thought it would. This is especially true on trauma.
Here's hoping for a good week with lots of good news! My mom's birthday is on the 15th - maybe that will be my lucky day!
Friday, March 9, 2007
However, tomorrow is Saturday and I am somewhat hopefull that this upcoming week will bring me a referral. I have my eye on a couple of cute hats! Hopefully I will have time today to look up the significance of March 10 in history!