Monday, October 6, 2008


despite the title I don't have any to post...but I am going to go home tomorrow and take some. Benjamin started social a little flirt yesterday. All day long he was a smiling happy baby. I loved it! Zeb has started showing tiny hints of sibling rivalry with the baby. Yesterday we went to Costco and I had to carry Benjamin and feed him and Zeb was having a come apart trying to climb out of the cart and onto me. I know it is wrong...but I was a little pleased that he wanted to give me some lovin! I never felt that Zeb ever expressed any attachment issues, but he has been about 150% more cuddly in the last couple of months and I love it. I have kind of always felt like second fiddle to fun it was nice to see that he likes me too!

I feel so lucky to have my life. I know I say that a lot, but I come to work and see lots of bad-ness. I see how tenuous health and life is and I want to enjoy my good fortune instead of spending all my time cleaning out the stupid garage. I was talking to Keith tonight about taking a weekend and just spend it doing something with the family relaxing...then we had to look at our calendars to schedule out family weekend in between my stupid ICU work schedule and a boyscout campout. So we may have time for a family outing sometime in early december...awesome. I love my job, but I hate the sheer time commitment residency takes up. I think I still feel guilty and somewhat angry towards work for Ben's early arrival. I worked 63 hours in the 4 days preceeding Ben's birth and then returned to work 3 weeks later only to be told that my residency director didn't think I was working hard enough. Evidently when you are 30 weeks pregnant working 80 hours a week in the ICU you are supposed to offer to do other people's work too...if you don't you aren't working hard enough. Ever since that episode, I really haven't had the enthusiasm for my job that I possessed last year. That being said...I really do love the work I do. I can't wait to be finished with residency and find a job that well....just isn't here!
We cleaned out our garage and made a preteen boy haven of table games...I will have to post a picture of that too. It is awesome. There is still some organizing that needs to get done down there...but it should be done very soon. I am hoping to get it done and try to have some sort of party...maybe try to meet some of the local FRUA members...I never get any invitations to any kind of local Birmingham FRUA events...maybe I have just been blacklisted...I dont' know! I wish I could start a local Kyrgyzstan adoption group...but it would be very small right now!

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