So the good news is that more visa's will be issued this week for families who probably have not been waiting as long as my daughters...but at least some visas will be issued.
I know that most people who read my blog care about international adoption, have adopted or have thought about adopting. So I feel like most of you can understand the heartache of waiting...can understand how utterly disappointed I am feeling, how sad I am to be missing 7 months of my daughters' lives. I don't think I fixate too much on it...I mean some days I do...some days are hard. Today is very, very hard. To learn that the embassy needs more proof of something that we could have been trying to get for the last 16 weeks...to have wasted 4 months of my daughter's lives. 4 months is a long time to a 2 year old and 9 year old. I certainly don't want to annoy people in my life by spending too much time on it...but how do you watch your 2 year old son do things and not think of your 2 year old daughter who you don't get to hold, or play with or cuddle with.
I guess I just have to get over it and move on without upsetting the people around me. I have to go to work and be nice and focus on what is in front of me, I have to quit thinking about it and just get over it.