Thursday, December 31, 2015

Roller skates

Zebby got some skates for Christmas.

Monday, December 28, 2015

My fall from Social Media!

I am so blessed to have delivered my 4th bio child on my birthday this year...Sept 1st. A couple of days after we got home from the hospital, I realized that I spend way too much time on the computer. Most of the time was spent sitting on Facebook reading comments about other peoples lives. I certainly like everyone I am friends with on Facebook, but I just have so much in my life, I need to spend time trying to catch up on all of the little things around the house...like feeding all of the kids and maybe giving them a bath once a month (that may be an exaggeration...a slight exaggeration!). The one thing I really, really miss about Facebook, is that I can't look back and see a bunch of pictures I have posted and see what I was doing way back when. So the blog is reborn. I am going to try to keep current and post pictures! In addition to a brand new baby, we are in the process of relocating to the North Myrtle Beach area. I love the beach and I love warm. Last year's coldness was brutal and I am ready to live somewhere that the pool can be open more than 2 months out of the year. So I didn't unfriend anyone...I just unfriended facebook. I truly hope so many of my fb friends are doing well and had an extremely happy holiday season!

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Mother's Day

I have such a sweet little family. What a joy. Little Violet stumbled into my room around 7 am for an early morning nap with me. Then she quietly got up and a very responsible Zeb got all the little kids breakfast. Zeb and Han walked the dog and everyone stayed quiet so the big girls and I could sleep in. Once I got up, we finished up last week's homework for the little's and the big girls got up and cleaned the kitchen and sent me back to bed to they could make me lunch in bed..since they slept through breakfast. Everyone is just so good to me...yes it is Mother's Day... all of these things are just like every other day I get to be home from work with my family. There are lots of moments filled with chaos, but there are increasingly more time filled with calm. I expect that to change in about 4 months when #10 makes an appearance..so I guess I better take a nap...stat! Happy Mother's day to all you mom's out there like me who feel too lucky to deserve any sort of special day...I am blessed with my gifts every day!

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

The most dangerous emotion..

I had a boyfriend in college that I met in the college bookstore. He was working there..stocking the shelves and randomly turned to me and asked me if I thought two people could have a meaningful relationship if one of them felt guilty about something. Probably, I should have remembered that a little more clearly months later when we started dating! haha..that was many, many, many years ago. He was right to ask that question though because guilt manipulates you into doing all sort of crazy things. When I was younger, I would get myself into more trouble somehow trying to justify actions or behaviours that made me feel guilty. I think guilty people try to shift the blame for things onto others and just don't take responsibility. It is easier than admitting you have been a jerk! It can be big things or it can be very little things. Guilt is a giant wedge in a relationship and it just gets bigger. It can start out so small too and then become so big. I am kind of an introvert with probably a little too much insight and internal dialogue about my emotional motivations..yes. Guilt becomes even trickier when you disguise it, or rename it as a sense of duty. At what point are you obligated by duty and at what point are you being manipulated by guilt? I don't know that anyone has enough insight to clearly separate those two! Obviously, I am feeling a bit guilty about something. In 2008, we accepted a referral for a 4 year old boy from Kyrgyzstan...moratoriums happen we lost some money. Kyrgyzstan reopened we tried again and lost some more money. Kyrgyzstan reopened again and we adopted our boys from China. Now, this cute little 4 year old is an 11 year old on a hosting list for a summer hosting program. Our life is very full right now...we have 9 children - 2 home less than a year. For many of you who don't know this...we are also pregnant and expecting baby number 10 in September. We are desperately trying to pay off bills especially adoption costs from the latest additions. We have a lot going on this summer and I feel guilty or is it a sense of duty to host this little guy. We have followed along with him peripherally since our initial referral - people we know have visited him, they know him, they say such sweet and wonderful things about him. I can justify not hosting him - if I were talking to a friend in my situation with this particular problem I would have no problem whole heartedly saying "you have a lot going on and you have to take care of you. There is no reason to feel like you have any responsibility towards him - you have walked the path God meant you to walk. You have prayed about it and you need to listen and follow your heart." Seriously, I would never think less of any friend who would choose not to host a child when they had so much on their plate...it would be the responsible thing, in fact. At some point, even large family homeschooling crazy mama's have to minimize the chaos. Yet, I think about the picture of a 4 year old boy getting a Dumbo stuffed elephant with a picture of his new family in the little attached picture frame. I wonder if one month of being hosted in a family would make the difference between hopelessness and hope when he eventually ages out....or if there might be a family willing to take a chance on an 11 year old if the meet him while he is over here being hosted. I have known he was on the hosting list for several weeks, but it was easier to think that maybe it is better to not worry about it because maybe a family who is planning on adopting might choose him to host for the summer. We wouldn't want to hurt his chances. Today, I got the "only a few weeks left" email from the hosting program and he is still unmatched. I feel guilty. What is important? Am I a hypocrite - do I really walk the walk for the talk that most of my t shirts talk! I haven't written anything on this blog in forever and there are probably only like 2 peeps who peek in - this is really more of a rhetorical post. This issue is one I have to resolve within myself and it is nice to be able to type it out.

Thursday, January 8, 2015

The Holidays

We just had a great run with the holidays. We spent both Thanksgiving and Christmas at the Beach. We went to Nag's Head, NC and had a house right on the beach. Seriously, there is no other way to go..you can look out at the water when you are cooking dinner and hear the waves crashing as you go to sleep at night...loved it! Last night Violet wanted to lay in bed and talk with me about the beach before we fell asleep. I am pretty sure she thinks that is "our" beach house (we stayed in the same house both trips). It was nice...I think I like my beaches a tad warmer though! haha. Tonight I was home alone with the kids and gave V a bath and all of the other kids just came up by the bathroom so we could hang out and talk...then we just all (yes all 8 of us...Lil is at her dad's) went into the girls room to brush V's hair and just hang out. It was nice to just sit around and talk with my little family with no electronics, no tv shows, no food...just hanging.

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